Snap Out of the Funk...

i apologize for the deluge of youtube videos as of late, and yet here is another one. although this video is not so much about the images, as the song itself. it's much easier to post a youtube video with the song, than to try and find a place to host an mp3, so i'm afraid this is the best i could do for now.

i woke up in a strange funk today, and now it's 1:30 in the morning again, and after sleeping most of the day away, the funk continues. i could joke about how guys get their period too, maybe not on such a rigorous schedule, but at least for me when it happens, everyone knows about it. so i try and keep to myself.

i cried for the first time in a long time today. i've come to some realizations that i'll have to accept, although i definately am not happy with. i have a shared responsibilty that i have had to bear on my own for some time now, and it seems, although i thought the end was near, i must continue to bear it on my own. i will keep my promise to myself though. i will still be a happier person than i used to be. i do plan on living more simply, as i had planned before. now, i just have another obstacle to get by in order to make myself happy and have my needs actually become mine.

after all, my life has always been about tales of winning and tales of losing, though mostly tales from that nether state in between where i have learned to live. this is just another lesson to prove my place.